Well its been a few days since i posted last, to be honest i have been feeling fairly crap, I ate Saturday, Sunday and Monday, i was feeling fairly down and to be honest a bit depressed, we all have our up and down days and im glad to say im on the way back up.
Today is effectivly day 2 for me again and im 100% determined im not going slip up again i want to have lost another stone in weight by this time next month.
I have spoken to my CDC today and quite rightly she has told me off for not giving her a ring have sorted out next weeks packs and as much as i enjoyed the bars im giving them a miss next week.
Me.
Blue Moon Countdown
Wednesday 30 May 2007
Monday 28 May 2007
28th May 2007 Bad Day
Well it looks like im not the only one that has fallen off the wagon this weekend not that that is any excuseon my part.
After falling off the wagon on Saturday I smashed the waggon to peices last night.
I had a chinease special fried rice, which on hindsight i didnt really enjoy, my thinking was well im out of ketossis tommorow is another day blah blah blah
I feel like crap today not because i have eaten but its that time of the month after i have been up to see my kids and i start feeling sorry for myself, think i have got a cold i got soaked yesterday. and i really dont want to go to work tonight but hey got to pay the bills some how
Im back on the wagon and the water back to ss after a swift kick up the ass from myself and a slap round the head to stop being a moody sod.
Rant over thanks for listening.
After falling off the wagon on Saturday I smashed the waggon to peices last night.
I had a chinease special fried rice, which on hindsight i didnt really enjoy, my thinking was well im out of ketossis tommorow is another day blah blah blah
I feel like crap today not because i have eaten but its that time of the month after i have been up to see my kids and i start feeling sorry for myself, think i have got a cold i got soaked yesterday. and i really dont want to go to work tonight but hey got to pay the bills some how
Im back on the wagon and the water back to ss after a swift kick up the ass from myself and a slap round the head to stop being a moody sod.
Rant over thanks for listening.
Sunday 27 May 2007
Yesterday
Well i got up at 4am to go up and see the kids, Got the train as normal got to leicester and picked the kids up,The plan for the day was to go to one of the parks have a picnic lunch and fly the kite.
We got to the park to find it closed for someevent thats taking place today and tommorow, so no picnic in the park or kite kite flying, spent the next 5 hours pretty much just walking aimlessly around leicester window shopping, we found a cafe and got some drink and sausage rolls and i had 1 as well .
As it was raining i rang the ex to come and pick the kids up a bit earlier than normal 1 hour and 10 minutes later she finally arrived. Lets just say that hour was one of th elongest hours of my life the kids were whinging and playing up and at one point i did wonder why i bother.
Needless to say i missed the train i wanted to catch so had to wait another 30 mins for the next, which was running late,Got into london 30 mins late then fought my way off the station which took 20 mins, then off to the underground.I get half way and cahnge for the bakerloo line to find its suspended, so about face to where i had just come from to take the northern line.
Talk about sardine can well sardines have it sorted compared to the tube at times. Finally made it Waterloo and the train back to Bournemouth and home 18 Hours after I left at 4am.I was very bad on the way home 2 jumbo sausages.
Me.
We got to the park to find it closed for someevent thats taking place today and tommorow, so no picnic in the park or kite kite flying, spent the next 5 hours pretty much just walking aimlessly around leicester window shopping, we found a cafe and got some drink and sausage rolls and i had 1 as well .
As it was raining i rang the ex to come and pick the kids up a bit earlier than normal 1 hour and 10 minutes later she finally arrived. Lets just say that hour was one of th elongest hours of my life the kids were whinging and playing up and at one point i did wonder why i bother.
Needless to say i missed the train i wanted to catch so had to wait another 30 mins for the next, which was running late,Got into london 30 mins late then fought my way off the station which took 20 mins, then off to the underground.I get half way and cahnge for the bakerloo line to find its suspended, so about face to where i had just come from to take the northern line.
Talk about sardine can well sardines have it sorted compared to the tube at times. Finally made it Waterloo and the train back to Bournemouth and home 18 Hours after I left at 4am.I was very bad on the way home 2 jumbo sausages.
Me.
Friday 25 May 2007
25th May 2007 - Pay Day
Well its pay day and offically 4 weeks ago i started CD, to date i have lost just over 19lb.
I feel a little lost today normally when i get paid i treat myself to cooked breakfast follwed by maccie d for lunch and a kebab in the evening, but today i have had a choc mint shake and a chocolate meal bar, it was weird actully chewing something today, today is the first day i have been allowed to to have the meal bars.
I went and saw my CDC today, and i have paid her for another 4 weeks of cambridge diet so thats me skint for the next 4 weeks, I am now going to be having 1 tetra pack shake, 1 bar, one soup and one shake a day, if i have the same weight loss in the next 4 weeks the expense will be well worth it.
I havnt had a cup of coffee for two days now and im pleased to say i havnt got any headaches or side effects from caffiene withdrawl, im still strugggling with the water intake which may contribute to my not very good weight loss this week must try harder.
Me.
I feel a little lost today normally when i get paid i treat myself to cooked breakfast follwed by maccie d for lunch and a kebab in the evening, but today i have had a choc mint shake and a chocolate meal bar, it was weird actully chewing something today, today is the first day i have been allowed to to have the meal bars.
I went and saw my CDC today, and i have paid her for another 4 weeks of cambridge diet so thats me skint for the next 4 weeks, I am now going to be having 1 tetra pack shake, 1 bar, one soup and one shake a day, if i have the same weight loss in the next 4 weeks the expense will be well worth it.
I havnt had a cup of coffee for two days now and im pleased to say i havnt got any headaches or side effects from caffiene withdrawl, im still strugggling with the water intake which may contribute to my not very good weight loss this week must try harder.
Me.
Wednesday 23 May 2007
23rd May 2007 Yesterday
Well at time of writing i'm a day behind as its now Thursday 24Th, the cats woke me up at 5am for food so thought i would catch up with my blog so here's is yesterdays entry.
I was up at the crack of dawn, as another early shift at work. Work was fine until i got to London had problems with the train and delays on the way back to Bournemouth.
I manged to space my 2 packs out OK at work, but was only able to have 700ml of water, when i got home i tried to get some sleep but as always something kept me awake so i went window shopping in Boscombe.
When i got home i found every time i got up i was feeling light headed probably from the lack of water and only having the two packs.
As regular readers will probably know i have been having a big debate over having my add a meal week next week instead of the week after so it coincides with going up to see the kids and pay day, well finally think i have it sorted, have spoken to my Cambridge Diet Councilor (CDC), and she is happy for me to have it next week, she was a bit concerned about what i was going to do when i go up to see my kids, for food i was planning on having a Kentucky with the kids, but now we are going to have a picnic so i guess its a bag of rabbit food and some chicken along with a tetra and bar for me on Saturday.
As to the rest of the week i must admit having read what i can have to eat i have a feeling i will be living off chicken breast fillets and and a small amount of veg, was planning on using birds eye steamed veg in pack but they have butter on so maybe not. and at the risk of being ignorant wtf is tofu and whats the difference between soft and hard ?.......
Fortunately felt a lot better after having my last two packs for the day and getting some water down me, i landed up going to bed at 9.30 pm as i was so tired only to be woken up by the cats at 5am today, and have been up since here to 4 days off starting today and a good weekend.
Me.
I was up at the crack of dawn, as another early shift at work. Work was fine until i got to London had problems with the train and delays on the way back to Bournemouth.
I manged to space my 2 packs out OK at work, but was only able to have 700ml of water, when i got home i tried to get some sleep but as always something kept me awake so i went window shopping in Boscombe.
When i got home i found every time i got up i was feeling light headed probably from the lack of water and only having the two packs.
As regular readers will probably know i have been having a big debate over having my add a meal week next week instead of the week after so it coincides with going up to see the kids and pay day, well finally think i have it sorted, have spoken to my Cambridge Diet Councilor (CDC), and she is happy for me to have it next week, she was a bit concerned about what i was going to do when i go up to see my kids, for food i was planning on having a Kentucky with the kids, but now we are going to have a picnic so i guess its a bag of rabbit food and some chicken along with a tetra and bar for me on Saturday.
As to the rest of the week i must admit having read what i can have to eat i have a feeling i will be living off chicken breast fillets and and a small amount of veg, was planning on using birds eye steamed veg in pack but they have butter on so maybe not. and at the risk of being ignorant wtf is tofu and whats the difference between soft and hard ?.......
Fortunately felt a lot better after having my last two packs for the day and getting some water down me, i landed up going to bed at 9.30 pm as i was so tired only to be woken up by the cats at 5am today, and have been up since here to 4 days off starting today and a good weekend.
Me.
Tuesday 22 May 2007
22 May 2007
Well its been another good day on the diet front had a tetra at 6am at work and and a banana shake about 11 water is going down slowly, a few more people at work telling me how bad this type of diet is and how i will put the weight straight back on, yes whatever...............
Also another couple of people including my manager asking how its going and he even said it looked like i had lost some weight. Most likly because i have.
Had to sit around at work for a few hours so was a bit stressed smelling people cooking bacon and sausage butties and munching on chocolate, (tummy rumble time) but yet again i resisted temptation.
I have come to the conclusion that the chicken i had about 4 days ago did throw me out of ketosis and i have only just got back today, im cold and had a mouth like a sewer today.
Im really looking forward to going up to see my kids, i was so intent that i was going to have what i want to eat on Saturday then get back on the add a meal wagon after, i beginning to have second thoughts, its taken me nearly a week to get back to kettosis.............
Is one Kentucky really worth it ?
Me.
Also another couple of people including my manager asking how its going and he even said it looked like i had lost some weight. Most likly because i have.
Had to sit around at work for a few hours so was a bit stressed smelling people cooking bacon and sausage butties and munching on chocolate, (tummy rumble time) but yet again i resisted temptation.
I have come to the conclusion that the chicken i had about 4 days ago did throw me out of ketosis and i have only just got back today, im cold and had a mouth like a sewer today.
Im really looking forward to going up to see my kids, i was so intent that i was going to have what i want to eat on Saturday then get back on the add a meal wagon after, i beginning to have second thoughts, its taken me nearly a week to get back to kettosis.............
Is one Kentucky really worth it ?
Me.
Monday 21 May 2007
21 MAY 2007 Measurements
At Time of writing im pretty happy.
I cheated earlier in the week so my weight loss hasnt been spectacular although have still lost 5lb this week alone.
I have just got my tape measure out and must admit im very happy.
(Black when started Red now)
Neck 17in 16in
Chest 46in 44
Waist 47 43 1/2
Belly 51 48 1/2
Thighs 26 1/2in No Change
Calves no cows here
Ankles couldnt reach
Upper arms 14 1/2 13
So for anyone out there who doubts this diet all i can say is it does work, these are my results i have been doing CD for nearly 4 weeks and for one of those weeks i was having food as well.
Me.
I cheated earlier in the week so my weight loss hasnt been spectacular although have still lost 5lb this week alone.
I have just got my tape measure out and must admit im very happy.
(Black when started Red now)
Neck 17in 16in
Chest 46in 44
Waist 47 43 1/2
Belly 51 48 1/2
Thighs 26 1/2in No Change
Calves no cows here
Ankles couldnt reach
Upper arms 14 1/2 13
So for anyone out there who doubts this diet all i can say is it does work, these are my results i have been doing CD for nearly 4 weeks and for one of those weeks i was having food as well.
Me.
Saturday 19 May 2007
Day 8 And 9 - I have Been Good Honest
Well its been a few days since The Chicken Incident and i have been busy with work or sleeping so thought it was time for a catch up in general.
I have been good honest have just been having my 4 packs a aday, i havnt been very good on the water front or in very good at spacing my packs, i blame this on having to get up at 3am to go to work.
At time of writing its been 5 hours since i had my last pack a very horrible lumpy stawberry shake i cant find my shaker i had it yesterday i thought i had left it at work but wasnt and i cant find at home.
Woke up this morning to find trixie one of my cats had brought in yet another bird this time a full grown pigeon that was nearly as big as her no idea how she got it through the cat flap.
Just what i wanted at 3am.
I have found over the last few days i have been very tired and ache all over this may have somrthing to do with the early start but its taking me 40 minutes to walk home and it normally only takes 30.
As always thanks for reading.
I have been good honest have just been having my 4 packs a aday, i havnt been very good on the water front or in very good at spacing my packs, i blame this on having to get up at 3am to go to work.
At time of writing its been 5 hours since i had my last pack a very horrible lumpy stawberry shake i cant find my shaker i had it yesterday i thought i had left it at work but wasnt and i cant find at home.
Woke up this morning to find trixie one of my cats had brought in yet another bird this time a full grown pigeon that was nearly as big as her no idea how she got it through the cat flap.
Just what i wanted at 3am.
I have found over the last few days i have been very tired and ache all over this may have somrthing to do with the early start but its taking me 40 minutes to walk home and it normally only takes 30.
As always thanks for reading.
Thursday 17 May 2007
Day 6 And 7 I Cheated Again.....
Well yesterday was my day off was a bit of non event, went to see my cdc and picked up my next weeks supplies.
I was very bad I grilled some chicken breast fillits and ate them , must admit i dint feel any better afterwards. I think the reason for doing this was that i was feeling a bit down after speaking to my kids last night.
Well i have drawn a line under the incident and started afresh today hopefully i havnt thrown myself out of ketosis i think i specifially cooked chicken with that in mind.
Today has been a better day apart from having to get up from work at 3am and start work at 4am. I just loving starting at stupid o clock.
Have had all my packs for day and about 3 litres of water am just chilling out before having a nice soak in the bath and bed.
I was very bad I grilled some chicken breast fillits and ate them , must admit i dint feel any better afterwards. I think the reason for doing this was that i was feeling a bit down after speaking to my kids last night.
Well i have drawn a line under the incident and started afresh today hopefully i havnt thrown myself out of ketosis i think i specifially cooked chicken with that in mind.
Today has been a better day apart from having to get up from work at 3am and start work at 4am. I just loving starting at stupid o clock.
Have had all my packs for day and about 3 litres of water am just chilling out before having a nice soak in the bath and bed.
Tuesday 15 May 2007
15th May 2007 - Day 5
Well thats day 5 over, woke up at about 6am cold and with a vile taste in my mouth all the tell tale signs of ketosis.
My day off today and the plan was to catch up on the house work and the washing well i did put the rubbish out and hoover and put a load of washing on which is still in the washing machine as we speak,
I then decided i wanted to watch a film so i sat down and watched all 3 lord of the rings films back to back not just the normal versions but the extended versions so i have been sat on my ass for about 12 hours, im still cold and my breath still stinks but whats worse is im still hungry im sure i have had all my packs today and again sure i have drunk more than 2 and half litres of water but must admit i havnt been keeping check.
Off to see my cdc tommorow to get another weeks worth of diet so as its past midnight i guess i should sort the washing out and get to my bed.
My day off today and the plan was to catch up on the house work and the washing well i did put the rubbish out and hoover and put a load of washing on which is still in the washing machine as we speak,
I then decided i wanted to watch a film so i sat down and watched all 3 lord of the rings films back to back not just the normal versions but the extended versions so i have been sat on my ass for about 12 hours, im still cold and my breath still stinks but whats worse is im still hungry im sure i have had all my packs today and again sure i have drunk more than 2 and half litres of water but must admit i havnt been keeping check.
Off to see my cdc tommorow to get another weeks worth of diet so as its past midnight i guess i should sort the washing out and get to my bed.
14 May 2007 Day 4
Day 4
Jumped on the scales and weighed myself as I was unable to make weigh in due to work, very happy to see im 17st 0lb whooo hooo cant remeber last time i weighed this much (little),
in short i have lost 11lb on Cambridge even with having to take a week off.
As im running out of packs am having to stratt using the flavours i dont really like, fruits of the forest ok, cappachinno vile and toffee and walnut anyone got a bucket.
Have been struggling with my water intake have just about drunk 3 litres, and i have been feeling very cold, tell tale signs of entering ketosis which is good from the point of the diet.
Work was ok a long shift fortunatley two days off tuesday and wednesday.
Me.
Jumped on the scales and weighed myself as I was unable to make weigh in due to work, very happy to see im 17st 0lb whooo hooo cant remeber last time i weighed this much (little),
in short i have lost 11lb on Cambridge even with having to take a week off.
As im running out of packs am having to stratt using the flavours i dont really like, fruits of the forest ok, cappachinno vile and toffee and walnut anyone got a bucket.
Have been struggling with my water intake have just about drunk 3 litres, and i have been feeling very cold, tell tale signs of entering ketosis which is good from the point of the diet.
Work was ok a long shift fortunatley two days off tuesday and wednesday.
Me.
Sunday 13 May 2007
13 May 2007 Day Three Again
Well today is day 3 again, im glad to say this time round no sign of a urinary infection.
Its been one of these days when i should have stayed in bed.....
Firstly i spilt my Strawberry shake all over me my carpet and my chair.
Then i had a bath to find out i had run out of shampoo, checked in the bathroom cabinet 3 bottles of conditioner, I dont use conditioner.
They say these things come in threes well today it was fours, my shoe lace broke as i was putting my shoes on to go to work, two seconds after leaving home the heavens opened, and i got soaked.
The perfect way to start a 10 hour shift at work.
Me.
Its been one of these days when i should have stayed in bed.....
Firstly i spilt my Strawberry shake all over me my carpet and my chair.
Then i had a bath to find out i had run out of shampoo, checked in the bathroom cabinet 3 bottles of conditioner, I dont use conditioner.
They say these things come in threes well today it was fours, my shoe lace broke as i was putting my shoes on to go to work, two seconds after leaving home the heavens opened, and i got soaked.
The perfect way to start a 10 hour shift at work.
Me.
12 May 2007
Day two again.
Well im sticking to CD had my 3 shakes and 1 soup was very happy when i got on the scales as down to 17st 2lb 8oz, at the moment i'm losing roughly 2lb in weight a day.
Im still drinking water untill it comes out of my ears managed nearly 4 Litres.
I have been feeling fairly hungry people at work eating dosnt help somebodys curry looked very nice as did someones Chianese, but i was good resisted temptation.
Work was ok apart from i had to call the police to the train at a time when i was nearly finished and just wanted to get to poole to finish, and then as the train was delayed had to spend 20 minutes filling in a report form, still thats work for you.
Me.
Well im sticking to CD had my 3 shakes and 1 soup was very happy when i got on the scales as down to 17st 2lb 8oz, at the moment i'm losing roughly 2lb in weight a day.
Im still drinking water untill it comes out of my ears managed nearly 4 Litres.
I have been feeling fairly hungry people at work eating dosnt help somebodys curry looked very nice as did someones Chianese, but i was good resisted temptation.
Work was ok apart from i had to call the police to the train at a time when i was nearly finished and just wanted to get to poole to finish, and then as the train was delayed had to spend 20 minutes filling in a report form, still thats work for you.
Me.
Friday 11 May 2007
11 May 2007 Day One Again Again.........
Well its day one proper today and not one morsal of food has crossed my lips, I started the day with a Tetra Chocolate shake, and had 3/4 of a litre of water before i went to work.
At work i had 2 soups and anonther shake, I must admit i still dont like the cheese and Broccoli, as i was working today 9 hours I dont think I really spaced out my packs, as im sat here typing the tummy is rumbling. I have had 3 litres of water today and have another glass infront of me with Black coffee sweetned with sweetners.
Today at work was my first propper day back working trains, i havnt really fely hungry today untill i came across a pasenger sat eating eating a very nice smelling donna kebab. I had forgotten what a 9 hour shift feels like particually on my feet, so with that in mind im off to put my feet up, i think a nice soak in the bath is called for as well.
Me.
At work i had 2 soups and anonther shake, I must admit i still dont like the cheese and Broccoli, as i was working today 9 hours I dont think I really spaced out my packs, as im sat here typing the tummy is rumbling. I have had 3 litres of water today and have another glass infront of me with Black coffee sweetned with sweetners.
Today at work was my first propper day back working trains, i havnt really fely hungry today untill i came across a pasenger sat eating eating a very nice smelling donna kebab. I had forgotten what a 9 hour shift feels like particually on my feet, so with that in mind im off to put my feet up, i think a nice soak in the bath is called for as well.
Me.
Thursday 10 May 2007
10th May 2007
Well its been a busy few days so havnt really had time to catch up on here whats been going on in my world, so this will be a bit of a catch up.
Im glad to say the whole incident at work is over and done with and im allowed to work trains again, i must admit still feel physically sick when i think about what happned and what could have been, i keep telling myself that it didnt happen so i shouldnt think about, however if it stops me making a mistake in th efuture then its worth thinking about.
The Urinary infection i had has cleared up and i have finished the antibiotics, and am now already to restart Cambridge.
The plan was to restart CD today but when i checked how many packs i had i realised i was a few short for the rest of the month so today i have just had the two and eaten a meal, this now gives me enough packs to last untill pay day. I did weigh myself and my weight today was 17st 6oz so in the last week have only put on 2oz of the the weight i lost in the first few days.
So I shall be restarting CD proper tommorow.
So here is to tommorow and my CD restart.
Me.
Im glad to say the whole incident at work is over and done with and im allowed to work trains again, i must admit still feel physically sick when i think about what happned and what could have been, i keep telling myself that it didnt happen so i shouldnt think about, however if it stops me making a mistake in th efuture then its worth thinking about.
The Urinary infection i had has cleared up and i have finished the antibiotics, and am now already to restart Cambridge.
The plan was to restart CD today but when i checked how many packs i had i realised i was a few short for the rest of the month so today i have just had the two and eaten a meal, this now gives me enough packs to last untill pay day. I did weigh myself and my weight today was 17st 6oz so in the last week have only put on 2oz of the the weight i lost in the first few days.
So I shall be restarting CD proper tommorow.
So here is to tommorow and my CD restart.
Me.
Tuesday 8 May 2007
08 May 2007 - Two Days Before Restart
Well its tuesday today i beleive and only another day and halfs tablets to go before i can resart CD.
Am very glad to say things in the waterworks dept are better, and on the work front they gave me back my train working license today, im on a 3 month action plan i.e. dont F**K up again.
Would like to say i have been good whilst i have had the week off Cambridge, but i havnt there has been a few chocolate bars, a peice of cake and crumpets to name a couple of my sins this week. So here i am 2 days to go before restart on Thursday, chicken and vegetables for tea tonight with soup ala Cambridge to start washed down with a litre of water.
Me.
Am very glad to say things in the waterworks dept are better, and on the work front they gave me back my train working license today, im on a 3 month action plan i.e. dont F**K up again.
Would like to say i have been good whilst i have had the week off Cambridge, but i havnt there has been a few chocolate bars, a peice of cake and crumpets to name a couple of my sins this week. So here i am 2 days to go before restart on Thursday, chicken and vegetables for tea tonight with soup ala Cambridge to start washed down with a litre of water.
Me.
Sunday 6 May 2007
06 May 2007
Well i promised myself i wasnt going to get back on the scales untill restarting Cambridge but i did, pleased to say im still 17st 4lb and a few onces so havent put any weight back on.
Slowly starting to feel better in myself and it feels like the antibiotics are working, finish them on wednesday so restarting Cambridge on Thursday.
Im still feeling a bit down about the whole work front, yesterday i spent 8 hours sat on my bum, luckily im off for two days and on tuesday things should be resolved.
Well the house work is calling and the cats want to be fed.
Thanks for reading.
Slowly starting to feel better in myself and it feels like the antibiotics are working, finish them on wednesday so restarting Cambridge on Thursday.
Im still feeling a bit down about the whole work front, yesterday i spent 8 hours sat on my bum, luckily im off for two days and on tuesday things should be resolved.
Well the house work is calling and the cats want to be fed.
Thanks for reading.
Friday 4 May 2007
04 May 2007
Well its been a day since i stopped the diet properly, I took a shake to work with me and the plan is to have another later on and just some sort of sensible food later.
I have worked out i have enough packs to have 2 a day whilst im on the medication and then back to normal a week today Friday 11th. Im still not overally happy with the situation but thats the way its got be, i weighed myself this morning and i'm already back to 17st 7lb and thats just one day. i said i wasnt going to get paranoid about my weight so im not going to get back on the scales untill i restart cambridge next friday, what goes on will come off.
Work was another day of sitting around although i did have to deliver a letter from Bournemouth - Guildford, The investgatory meeting i have to attend is going to be on Tuesday so hopefully i will be back working trains on Wednesday, have just got toommorow to sit around as off sunday and monday, and b typical weather forcast is rain, typical bank holiday weather.
Me.
I have worked out i have enough packs to have 2 a day whilst im on the medication and then back to normal a week today Friday 11th. Im still not overally happy with the situation but thats the way its got be, i weighed myself this morning and i'm already back to 17st 7lb and thats just one day. i said i wasnt going to get paranoid about my weight so im not going to get back on the scales untill i restart cambridge next friday, what goes on will come off.
Work was another day of sitting around although i did have to deliver a letter from Bournemouth - Guildford, The investgatory meeting i have to attend is going to be on Tuesday so hopefully i will be back working trains on Wednesday, have just got toommorow to sit around as off sunday and monday, and b typical weather forcast is rain, typical bank holiday weather.
Me.
Thursday 3 May 2007
Day 5 - Gutted
Well the day started badly and hasnt got much better, a lot of pain when passing water, got to work then reported sick 2 mins after starting so walked home and went to see the doc, who has given me a course of antibiotics (Trimethoprim).
Have spoken to My CDC she has advised me to stop the diet whilst on the medication,
not that i didnt trust the info that i was given by my cdc but i did ring the CD help line and spoke to the medical adviser, she also advised stopping CD till i have finished the medication in order for my body to better equipped to fight the infection.
Up to today i have lost 7lb so feeling a bit gutted have now got to go shopping and buy some healthy food, preferably low cal.
I went shopping earlier, thanks to my cdc for giving me a refund on 1 weeks supplys, so i took a trip to Iceland to do some shopping, I must admit it was very hard while going round to try and find stuff thats low carb, food labeling is a nightmare, was tempted by the sausages and pizza but didnt get any
I managed to find some Birds eye healthy option nuke in the microwave meals brought some burgers that i will do on my george forman, chicken that i can steam or grill or turn into chicken tikka masala, on the naughty side i brought myself some crumpets and a bag of baking pots and a block of cheese, have recently found i like jacket spuds again with low fat spread and grated cheese yum although much better with ham and coleslaw as well.
Im still glugging the water better for me than coffee, and to be honest since cutting down a few weeks ago dont really like anymore.
Im still feeling a bit down, but im sure im doing the sensible thing by stopping CD, and its only for a week and i was only on day 5 , just hope i dont put the 7lb back on that i have lost since Sunday.
Me.
Have spoken to My CDC she has advised me to stop the diet whilst on the medication,
not that i didnt trust the info that i was given by my cdc but i did ring the CD help line and spoke to the medical adviser, she also advised stopping CD till i have finished the medication in order for my body to better equipped to fight the infection.
Up to today i have lost 7lb so feeling a bit gutted have now got to go shopping and buy some healthy food, preferably low cal.
I went shopping earlier, thanks to my cdc for giving me a refund on 1 weeks supplys, so i took a trip to Iceland to do some shopping, I must admit it was very hard while going round to try and find stuff thats low carb, food labeling is a nightmare, was tempted by the sausages and pizza but didnt get any
I managed to find some Birds eye healthy option nuke in the microwave meals brought some burgers that i will do on my george forman, chicken that i can steam or grill or turn into chicken tikka masala, on the naughty side i brought myself some crumpets and a bag of baking pots and a block of cheese, have recently found i like jacket spuds again with low fat spread and grated cheese yum although much better with ham and coleslaw as well.
Im still glugging the water better for me than coffee, and to be honest since cutting down a few weeks ago dont really like anymore.
Im still feeling a bit down, but im sure im doing the sensible thing by stopping CD, and its only for a week and i was only on day 5 , just hope i dont put the 7lb back on that i have lost since Sunday.
Me.
Wednesday 2 May 2007
Day 4 - A Better Day Than Yesterday
Well today is day 4 on CD for me, I again felt as if i didnt sleep properly last night vaguly recall seeing the time as 5.36am (maybe beacause of yesterdays stress )and yet again felt cold.
Manged to get up in time for work and got to work on time forgot my sweetners.Had to sit in our mess room for about 7 hours aday which was quite a challenge watching people eating most of the time, i was good i stuck to my water and 2 of my shakes.Have been feeling cold today and have had a bit of a head ache. I havnt felt the need to go to the loo every 2 secs like yesterday and im gald to say passing water has been nowhere as uncomfortable as yesderday, so hopefully the water is flushing it out of my system.
I did get called over to see my manager at work today over yesterdays incident where i was reassured that no disaplinary action will be taken, but untill the enquiry and reports are completed i wont be able to work any trains so looks like lots of sitting about.
All in all a much better day
Me.
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Tuesday 1 May 2007
Day 3- Good Day - Bad Day- Fking Crap Day.
Well i guess i should start at the beggining,
I woke up this morning haven overslept by about 30mins not too much of a problem, felt cold and mouth not good.Got dressed thankfully i had ironed a shirt last night, oicked up a tetra and a shake for ay work and off i went.About half way to work (15 mins walk about 800 steps) i realised i had left both my work mobile and my own personal mobile at home. in mind i thought about going and getting them but convinced myself that i wouldnt need either (how wrong i was).
Now some background as a Train Guard my job is what they call Safty Critaical along with Airline Pilots, Train Drivers etc.If I make a mistake someome could potentially be seriously hurt or killed.
Well today i had a saftey related incident at work, entirly my fault, luckily no one was every put in a position of danger what so ever, However as a saftey incident i have to report it (grass myself up), of course no phone to ring anyone........Fortuantley another guard was on the train so i was able to use his phone, As a result of this have been med screened (alcohol and drugs, Breathaliser and pee in a bottle) .
Untill the results come in im not allowed to work any trains and there will be an internal investigation, and possibly disoplinary action to follow.
How am i feeling well not good since i got up this morning everytime i have had to have a pee its hurt, i feel bloated and fat, worried about work, and disgusted with myself.
I gave in to food...........
To be precise i cave in to two Jumbo sausages from the chippy on the way home.
Im going to admit on here that im sat in tears as i type this, ifeel tottaly ashamed of myself and i feel i have not only let myself down but i have let down my friends on here as well.
This Is MY Low Point
Me.
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I woke up this morning haven overslept by about 30mins not too much of a problem, felt cold and mouth not good.Got dressed thankfully i had ironed a shirt last night, oicked up a tetra and a shake for ay work and off i went.About half way to work (15 mins walk about 800 steps) i realised i had left both my work mobile and my own personal mobile at home. in mind i thought about going and getting them but convinced myself that i wouldnt need either (how wrong i was).
Now some background as a Train Guard my job is what they call Safty Critaical along with Airline Pilots, Train Drivers etc.If I make a mistake someome could potentially be seriously hurt or killed.
Well today i had a saftey related incident at work, entirly my fault, luckily no one was every put in a position of danger what so ever, However as a saftey incident i have to report it (grass myself up), of course no phone to ring anyone........Fortuantley another guard was on the train so i was able to use his phone, As a result of this have been med screened (alcohol and drugs, Breathaliser and pee in a bottle) .
Untill the results come in im not allowed to work any trains and there will be an internal investigation, and possibly disoplinary action to follow.
How am i feeling well not good since i got up this morning everytime i have had to have a pee its hurt, i feel bloated and fat, worried about work, and disgusted with myself.
I gave in to food...........
To be precise i cave in to two Jumbo sausages from the chippy on the way home.
Im going to admit on here that im sat in tears as i type this, ifeel tottaly ashamed of myself and i feel i have not only let myself down but i have let down my friends on here as well.
This Is MY Low Point
Me.
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